friday

can i please make some cliche comment about how fast things can change? because holy shit. i have had a week that i am sure i will never have again. after months of confusion & weeks of attempting to push myself into the co-op program i have three job offers. i am beyond words. beyond. i have never been so flattered in my life.
now i'm in the position to make a choice. a choice that i has put me in tears, but no matter my choice, i am incredibly fortunate & i know that.



i also went to the john mayer concert at riverbend music center. i partook in a lot of people watching / staring & judging drunks. it was a load of fun, i learned that there are a lot of interesting people at riverbend.
i especially liked the guy with a pregnant girlfriend with him who was drinking beer from a straw, chain smoking cigs, occasionally pulling out a blunt & asked my friend if he could wrap her in his blanket and take her home with him.

he's the one with the fedora. quite the happy fella.

i also fell more in love with john mayer as the night went on, he has a warped intelligence & i adore the way he articulates his thoughts.

i had lawn seats; for an encore he played "your body is a wonderland" acoustic in the pavilion  

mini update for now. yoga in the morning. i need it.

how was your week?

what was the last big change in your life?

life

so, life is happening right now. did you know that? the concept is absolutely lost on me sometimes.

ever had an on the spot phone interview while walking around a boutique, a sweaty mess after 75 minutes of power yoga? that was me thursday. life.


ever felt clueless when you read an email from a company confirming your phone interview & thought 'what the hell i could have sworn i was going to have to re-arrange my life to get to their office at 1:30pm'? that was me thursday. life.



ever been woken up at 4am by the smoke alarm in your apartment to realize your roommates idiot friends were smoking pot in your kitchen & see the hash was all over you international business textbook? did you yell "what the fuck?' more times than you can count? that was me thursday. life.

ever taken an 8am european history midterm exam? that was me friday. life.

i repeat, i would like a vacation, i would like a break, i would like a hug.

once upon a time i was easy breezy. 

friday after my test my grandma picked me up & i'm spending the weekend at her house. i am absolutely exhausted.

what is life doing to you right now?

work

i called off work tonight. i didn't fake sick, even though i called in an hour before i was scheduled to come in. i felt like such a bitch doing it, but i had to do it. i put my sanity first.

tonight i sent my co-op shit in. love that i had less than 24hours to do what everyone else had 4 weeks to do [i'm done complaining]. i put it all out there & now its time to wait (again) for companies to make their choices for who they want to interview. 

aside from the stress of today, i've had a lot of stress. all self-induced of course. i'm tired. i'd like a vacation.

speaking of work . . .

myra's dionysus; i will never get over the fact that i work here. there are so many "myra things" its ridiculous.

but---i also got a 1/2 job. what is a 1/2 job? well its a job where you don't get paid, but you fucking love it. yes you are reading about the girl at my favorite yoga studio who signs people in before class & swiffers the studio after class. in return for my "work" i get free classes. it is absolutely ideal. (minus the fact that i take the city bus there, but i deal)

perk of the studio location: hyde park.

fresh carrot from the hyde park farmer's market. 

i did take some time for myself this weekend. for the record that is the biggest diet coke of my life & inception was fantastic.

what was the last movie you saw? inception, this movie kind of blew my mind. i think i told my sister that my life had be changed.

do you put yourself first? or more go go go? eh with the excess stress i put on myself i find that i have to really work to put myself first, my first instinct is to keep going.

my sisters

my sisters. no use telling me they're beautiful, because believe me, i all ready know it. 

sitting here thinking back through the 15 years i've spent with libby & the 10 years spent with mary. i've lived through all of their phases & each new phase always brings a more connected relationship. funny how somehow the same thing has happened with my younger brother.

we keep it simple: i like them and they like me. 

we're all different, but we're all wired the same. mary & i feel emotions the same way, i see so much of myself in her. libby is bitingly sarcastic & unbelievably compassionate.

the fact that they can't & won't leave me gives me something to hold onto. 

it is about time i become content with being the oldest. 

do you have siblings? 

do you like them?

tuesday

attempted a bit of a design update; what do you think?

as i'm sure all of you are aware, today is tuesday. i spent my weekend at home, supposedly celebrating the 4th of july, but really i was just attempting to practice the art of relaxation.
saturday i did some free flow yoga (first time i've been on the mat since that tuesday). and i finally examined my relationship with yoga. & what it comes down to is that i have a hard time stepping on the mat if i am not going to get an intense physical workout.
to remedy this i'm making a yoga commitment to myself.

i will practice yoga everyday. no time spent on the mat is too short nor too long. no pose is greater than another. i will practice breath rather than cultivating sweat. i will take each moment as they are & when each moment is complete i will move on.

i spent sunday taking care of my house while my parents & siblings went on a trip for the night.
i met my grandparents at the farmer's market (10 grain fresh baked bread. it is delicious.), took care of the dog, watered the plants, had a friend over--went to the pool, grilled zucchini & eggplant, watched capote, & slept in my parents bed (just for the dog's sake ;) of course). quite a day in my book.



today i'm back at school attempting to undo my academic advisor's forgetfulness & appeal my way into the cooperative education program.
the problem: i have above the maximum credit hour limit.
the solution: 4 quarters of co-op work into my schedule anyway.
the issue: my advisor forgot about the meeting we had back in january when she said she would pre-approve me.

i sent my letter a couple hours ago & hopefully i can get a definitive answer by the end of the week.
the mess this has turned into has caused me stress & frustration. but have to remember that results happen with a clear head & i did my part. i cannot go back in time & its no use harping on what i will do if i get rejected; i just have to wait. easier said than done.


so, to attempt to alleviate some stress & allow some calm into my life, i read.

my current reading materials. don't the bottom ones look fun?

let's see, my pleasure reading consists of: 

bohemian manifesto: a field guide to living life on the edge--if you ever see this please at least flip through it, it is absolutely hysterical & may soon convince me that dropping out of school and becoming a yoga instructor is a very good idea.

alice in wonderland--i was supposed to read this senior year of high school but i essentially skimmed through it, i'm reading it very slowly now & it is much more enjoyable that way.

eat, pray, love--just started this one. the hype around it originally turns me off but my friend wanted me to read it with her so we could talk about it. so far i like gilbert's style.

the girl with the dragon tattoo--just started this one too, my grandma absolutely loves it. it is all right, still waiting for it to grab my attention.

clearly, focusing my attention 9 different ways keeps me entertained. 

as do freshly bloomed sunflowers.

do you & yoga have a relationship? hopefully soon mine will become a softer one.

what are you reading right now? to many books for my own good.

what's your favorite way to calm down? long baths & sleep work wonders.

beautiful nostalgia

how do you feel about nostalgia?

i'm feeling it right now as i sit in my 3 and a half hour night class, being re-taught excel solver in a less effective manner than when i was originally taught at IU. 

i remember the group that helped me & laughed with me, we were on top of things & hardly ever procrastinated. 

sometimes i feel like i live in a world of constant memories. thoughts move from yesterday to last winter to five years ago. it makes the future seem unattainable. i'm twenty years old and my past is expansive. i find myself thinking oh god in ten years i'll be thirty. i sound like a forty year old.

sometimes nostalgia is just what you need though. i love when a song takes me back. nsync, britney spears, christina aguilera, hansen <--eight years old, my front yard with my next door neighbors, making up dance routines for an invisible audience. 

there should always be room for new too. 

especially in fruit form.

plumcot. yep found this baby at whole foods. looks exactly like a purple apricot on the outside. so delicious.

FIG. i overheard someone talking about figs when i was paying & i could not leave without checking for them. sure 8oz is 5 dollars. but you best believe i waiting in line again to buy them. my excitement mortified my younger sister.

i hope today was a beautiful day where you are. it was here. i went outside to get out of my apartment & return some stuffs to urban. soon i found myself wandering around clifton phone-less & ipod-less. i just looked around. i did have my camera. 

this is clifton. i find it interesting.

saint george church. i don't think it holds service anymore but, i do see the homeless man who sleeps on the steps more than i see my friends.

are you nostalgic? do you have memories that often repeat?

do you ever find yourself free? 

when i walking around i was free for moments. it wasn't constant, but it was there.

shopping

went to the consignment shop today.

i've been experimenting with my style lately. my problem is i like just about everything (especially everything that happens to be expensive), but i'm obnoxiously indecisive or impulsive. there are quite a few things i have bought only to look at them a month later & think 'what the hell was i thinking?'


what i do know about my style is that i like pairing historically un-pair-able colors: brown & black, gold & silver, navy & black. i also love grey, all kinds.

i am discovering how enjoyable it is to actually involve yourself in your fashion. last week i took an ancient pair of jeans (i'm talking freshman year of high school momentous first pair of lucky brand), grabbed the scissors & now i have a one of the kind pair of jean shorts, just the length i wanted.

any urban outfitters fans out there? 

i happen to live right across the street from one. i tend to just browse as their price & quality do not always make sense to me, butttt the other day they had a big sale & i purchased some basics & that blue floral top up there.



i always feel the need to define my style, but i've never been able to do it, which leaves me feeling as though i have no style. but i've started taking the fashion risks that i've been observing for ages & i must say it feels damn good.

do you have a style? can you define it?

wednesday wine

hi all.

so emily's event of the week = wine tasting.
it just happened. so i thought eh? why not do a little blog-ity blogging.
i tried allllll 6 of the wines that were there. a sparkling, a white, & 4 reds (why the hell didn't i take a picture of the bottles? kicking myself)
did you know, before tonight, i didn't think i liked reds. did you know, i was wrong. i like reds & whites; my life could be complete at this moment.

so i didn't take as many pictures as i had hoped, but i had a lovely time. i felt quite glamourous in my cincinnati (except we were right on the river in kentucky).

red + rooftop pool + the city = can i have this every week?

other than that though i'm dealing with my roommates---okay i tried to deal with them last night---and i looked into my options of moving into another unit for a couple months but i don't want to have to do that. the plan is that the next time i talk to them face to face i lay down the law (so to speak). [ps the gist is that my roommates love to party & be loud & leave the apartment a mess, i don't, i've kind of let it go for the last 6 months and now i'm the only one in summer classes & i'm done letting it go. [twitter explains more]

not the most photogenic of appetizers. i am a fan of everything on the inside. nottttt a bacon fan, but my mom found it necessary that i try it & try it i did. not the end of world.

dinner tonight : wine + a bacon wrapped dried apricot & date stuffed with pistachios. woahhhhh.



Lalala well tomorrow i have class at 6PM! omg it is 6-9:30PM. i'm kind of scared, but i know i'll live.

do you like wine? i think i've expressed my feelings :)

this just in: good eats is on! all about toast, i like toast. probably my favorite food network show for real.

what is your favorite (food network)show to watch?

ps--this post was brought to you by multiple spell check checks.

peach. t'was tye-die.

'summer break'

emily's busy day of "summer break"
3 words: yoga, whole foods, shopping.

highlight--yoga at move your hyde yoga
it was bliss. i wish i could go every morning, oh if i could live in hyde park. i went to their power 75 class & i was definitely skeptical of my ability to make it the whole 75 minutes. there were no mirrors (yes i am a mirror whore, i'll admit it) & only 6 of us in the class. i borrowed one of their mats; a manduka!! which i now need ;)
but the best part of the class--i sweat puddles. it felt amazing. all i can say.
ps: the studio is gorgeous & i will be making sure to take pictures.

do you yoga?

well yes :)

do you have a fancy/expensive mat?

mine's chilling in my apartment, its a gaiam & greyy<3 

have i mentioned that i love whole foods? cause i do. i felt it necessary to stop by after sweating buckets at yoga.
i was feeling adventurous so i talked to the guy making fresh juices and since i'd never had one he suggested his "first timer's juice"
first timer's juice = carrot, spinach, little bit of beet, ginger, orange juice.

frothyy. mine was beet-i-er.

and he made me a little wheatgrass to try. um, it tasted like grass.
he also gave them to me on the house. did i mention i love whole foods?
the verdict on the juice? umm i can't handle it. i wanted to like it, i really did, but i did not like it. kind of relieved to be honest.

i think i'll be sticking to my fruit juices.

thank you wehearit.com

&& i went shopping yesterday. went to the mall twice. my cosmo horoscope told me not to splurge because i would inevitably regret it today. i didn't listen, oops.

how do you feel about rompers? 

cause i bought a floral one, as i've been wanted one for weeks.

massive black sunglasses? 

bought those too, michael kors. the saleswoman made me do it.

excuse the photo. the style had just come in and when she said only 90 dollars, i actually believed her.

i'm thinking yesterday was the most action i've gotten in one day in a long time. which could explain why i couldn't keep my eyes open by 10:30.


today has been far less glamourous. i cleaned my bathroom, picked up my sister's from drama camp and summer school, went through my closet, sold some clothes, & grocery-ed.

hometown

been a while, eh? (i would like to be canadian or british or italian or cooler)
how is everyone? anything new?
i've been a bit out of the loop, had to take my computer to one of my favorite places (the apple store) to get fixed and it took them ages (still love them).



my news:

1. finished spring quarter. no more class till june 21st.
2. hanging out at home till classes.
3. cherries are delicious.
4. 5th graders are brutal.
5. been watching old movies of my family & i. my 1st day of kindergarten was a monumental event.
6. bought a white watch yesterday.

so i thought i had made a decision, i was good with it. and damn it today i got the phone call i'd been waiting for and i committed to exactly what i decided against. rolling my eyes at myself for sure.

i love the fact that these flowers look troubled. they've seen thunderstorms and drought. no one went out of their way to keep them safe. sure they're a little beat up, but their still open to receive the world.

profound, eh? maybe not. dramatic? yes.

found what ever this is interesting when i was walking to kroger last night to ease my boredom and buy an avocado. it's kind of like what my town used to be, farm country. how its grown in during the 17 years i have lived here is ridiculous.

is everyone done with school? for everyone's sake i hope the answer is yes.

anyone else doing the summer school thing? i know chandz is ;)

are you living where you grew up? we moved here when i was 3 & aside from college i've always been here.

decisions

i knew the "what's your favorite fruit?" question would be a tough one. that's why i asked & why i love you people :) happy friday.

this is why i like local coffee shops. crayons & quotes.

i'm currently in the midst of decision making. i have to evaluate what i want & what i need to get what i want. just waiting on a phone call with details on one of my options. the figuring out what i need would be a lot easier if i knew what i wanted. but important things aren't easy, right?
that's one of the things, i have a way of making nearly everything i do 10 times harder than it needs to be.
easy & uncomplicated don't jive for me.

i'm more of a "how in the world are we going to fix this disaster you've created"?
i think the problem is i can always find a way to fix the disaster. that's why i keep making them. what if there was a mess i couldn't clean up, would i finally learn my lesson? probably not--i'm stubborn.



i think all i can do right now is live moment to moment. enjoy my simple things. try different things. resist the urge to make everything "better".

a simple thing--fage 2%, apricot, cinnamon. 

ever walked to work while eating yogurt? no? well if you do, people will look at you funny, i guess yogurt is more of a sit down food.

what was the last different thing you tried?

wednesday

my apologies for absence in blog world. thank you for talking me off the ledge in my last post, my inner perfectionist is extremely high maintenance. she is practicing accepting things as they are presented to her.
she did maker herself a post trip salad to make herself feel better.

promptly took myself to the grocery store when i got home: spinach, broccoli, onion, red pepper, carrots, avocado, artichokes, & bbq. fstg multigrain chips + sabra roasted garlicc

just one big delicious mess.

happy wednesday---currently i'm working the real world & finals game. took 2 today. 1 friday. 1 tuesday.
& of course my allergies have decided to start acting up this week. i've been spending a lot of time whining/tweeting about them.

attempting to study at a cute cafe. praying the tropical fruit tart larabar & ceylon iced tea fix my nose.

tomorrow shall be an interesting day...i've got an appointment in the morning so i'm heading home tonight, all i want to say is please think of me tomorrow morning :)

apricot love. ridiculous.

what is your favorite fruit? 

me = fresh juicy pears.

are you good at feeling under the weather?

clearly i am not.

i can adapt damnit.

but now i want more coffee & spinach, carrots, cucumber, broccoli, avocado, berries, hummus, yogurt. give me back my produce. my cinnamon. my bed.
but scratch all that complaining because i don't want to complain.

i road-tripped up to indiana with my whole family. (dad, mom, me, brother, sister, sister) my brother had a soccer tournament. they lost. i went to one of the games, it was hot. i tried to relax; not so easy, the rooms are cold, we don't have enough water, all chain restaurants, the hotel is questionable.

god emily, shut up.


the more you complain, the more you complain. it does nothing. but i do want to scream a little bit.

pictures

guys i got a camera yesterday morning. my dad called me -- 6:40am to wake me up so i could meet him downstairs to grab it from him. someone sane would have gone back to bed at 6:55am when i got back to my room, but alas i am not sane and i got to figuring my new friend.

you see i really like photography. my freshman year of high school i was convinced i would be a photographer and and own my own studio. i took photo 1 & 2 in 9th grade, but then i was scared to take photo 3 with all the seniors my sophomore year, so i took entrepreneurs in action. then i realized my love for business.
i also took into to photography last year at indiana university; which shattered me a bit [i got a B].


i have a huge bias for natural studios, always have. a few years ago i deliberately ruined mother's day pictures, because they were being taken at a celebritykids portrait studio [with the giant sheets ugh] & i couldn't stand the way the man's tone when he talked to me.
i would never describe myself as nice.


onto today. today i took pictures. odd ones. not as beautiful as i had hoped, but i have all summer to practice.

without further adiu i now present---emily's mini walk in clifton.

nippert stadium--failed miserably at doing my homework, the music in my ipod was far more important

cincinnati conservatory of music alumni garden; i'm naming this little boy statue peter

obviously i got distracted when i was walking back to my apartment

good old clifton natural foods

rainbow of produce; if only they would lower the price

oh look it's myra's; teeny tiny restaurant where i work

get excited for more pictures to come; i bought this camera as a birthday present to myself && to keep me entertained this summer while i take summer classes.

how do you plan to keep entertained this summer?

any photo tips?