friday

can i please make some cliche comment about how fast things can change? because holy shit. i have had a week that i am sure i will never have again. after months of confusion & weeks of attempting to push myself into the co-op program i have three job offers. i am beyond words. beyond. i have never been so flattered in my life.
now i'm in the position to make a choice. a choice that i has put me in tears, but no matter my choice, i am incredibly fortunate & i know that.



i also went to the john mayer concert at riverbend music center. i partook in a lot of people watching / staring & judging drunks. it was a load of fun, i learned that there are a lot of interesting people at riverbend.
i especially liked the guy with a pregnant girlfriend with him who was drinking beer from a straw, chain smoking cigs, occasionally pulling out a blunt & asked my friend if he could wrap her in his blanket and take her home with him.

he's the one with the fedora. quite the happy fella.

i also fell more in love with john mayer as the night went on, he has a warped intelligence & i adore the way he articulates his thoughts.

i had lawn seats; for an encore he played "your body is a wonderland" acoustic in the pavilion  

mini update for now. yoga in the morning. i need it.

how was your week?

what was the last big change in your life?

life

so, life is happening right now. did you know that? the concept is absolutely lost on me sometimes.

ever had an on the spot phone interview while walking around a boutique, a sweaty mess after 75 minutes of power yoga? that was me thursday. life.


ever felt clueless when you read an email from a company confirming your phone interview & thought 'what the hell i could have sworn i was going to have to re-arrange my life to get to their office at 1:30pm'? that was me thursday. life.



ever been woken up at 4am by the smoke alarm in your apartment to realize your roommates idiot friends were smoking pot in your kitchen & see the hash was all over you international business textbook? did you yell "what the fuck?' more times than you can count? that was me thursday. life.

ever taken an 8am european history midterm exam? that was me friday. life.

i repeat, i would like a vacation, i would like a break, i would like a hug.

once upon a time i was easy breezy. 

friday after my test my grandma picked me up & i'm spending the weekend at her house. i am absolutely exhausted.

what is life doing to you right now?

work

i called off work tonight. i didn't fake sick, even though i called in an hour before i was scheduled to come in. i felt like such a bitch doing it, but i had to do it. i put my sanity first.

tonight i sent my co-op shit in. love that i had less than 24hours to do what everyone else had 4 weeks to do [i'm done complaining]. i put it all out there & now its time to wait (again) for companies to make their choices for who they want to interview. 

aside from the stress of today, i've had a lot of stress. all self-induced of course. i'm tired. i'd like a vacation.

speaking of work . . .

myra's dionysus; i will never get over the fact that i work here. there are so many "myra things" its ridiculous.

but---i also got a 1/2 job. what is a 1/2 job? well its a job where you don't get paid, but you fucking love it. yes you are reading about the girl at my favorite yoga studio who signs people in before class & swiffers the studio after class. in return for my "work" i get free classes. it is absolutely ideal. (minus the fact that i take the city bus there, but i deal)

perk of the studio location: hyde park.

fresh carrot from the hyde park farmer's market. 

i did take some time for myself this weekend. for the record that is the biggest diet coke of my life & inception was fantastic.

what was the last movie you saw? inception, this movie kind of blew my mind. i think i told my sister that my life had be changed.

do you put yourself first? or more go go go? eh with the excess stress i put on myself i find that i have to really work to put myself first, my first instinct is to keep going.

my sisters

my sisters. no use telling me they're beautiful, because believe me, i all ready know it. 

sitting here thinking back through the 15 years i've spent with libby & the 10 years spent with mary. i've lived through all of their phases & each new phase always brings a more connected relationship. funny how somehow the same thing has happened with my younger brother.

we keep it simple: i like them and they like me. 

we're all different, but we're all wired the same. mary & i feel emotions the same way, i see so much of myself in her. libby is bitingly sarcastic & unbelievably compassionate.

the fact that they can't & won't leave me gives me something to hold onto. 

it is about time i become content with being the oldest. 

do you have siblings? 

do you like them?